I was encouraged by a friend to find an online support group for my depression and suicidal ideation. I have had really bad experiences with face-to-face therapy so this is sort of a last ditch effort. My situation is that my life is pretty great, but my brain is a total mess. I have a great job, great family, nice house, loving friends. But I can't really talk to any of them about the fact that I am miserable and constantly think about suicide. I've made several plans. I have a hard time thinking about the future or even tiny little problems like what to cook for dinner without just immediately defaulting to the ideation. I've been depressed for a very long time and have been on several different meds. I'm tired of living a half-life like this! Anyone else in a similar boat?