Today I handed in my resignation at work, I am quitting because I am fed up of people laughing at me with their eyes for what I do. I have also sent three emails to the Samartins asking them for advice on my Suicidal feelings. They have relplied to all three but their advice wasnt the best. Being free of work now sort of gives me more control over the next stage. I can plan more, as I have loads more time on my hands, and of course now I will be out of work my finances will cease and the debt collectors will come and take all my stuff away, like deamons in the night, like the people who have taken my worthless life from me. I have considered the deed and how I will do it over and over, especially at night, when my flat mate is sleeping, he cannot tell me otherwise, and only I can hear my thoughts. I need a note first, and I want to complete it this time, and not chicken out. I dont want to see a doctor, I know I am wrong to think this way, but after I am gone, people will soon forget about me. After all, that is what they want.