Pill
- Thread starter Guy Incognito XI
- Start date
- Status
The people here are the people who would have given up. Maybe that is why they are here today.
I am different. I saw where my life was going. Eclipse the past and set up the future I said. If you can't join them, make damn sure you can beat them I added. You can't imagine the sacrifices I have made (yeh..yeh they will think), the altruism I have shown, the dedication and determination I have exerted. (boring... everyone works hard sometimes) !!!!
Five years ago I didn't ask for help. I didn't need help. I have never needed help. I did things by myself when everyone and everything was against me.
I hear platitudes of 'don't give up' 'keep trying'. Well five years ago I said the same things to myself. I did everything to change this life, and that is why I can say that this is my fate. There is no decision I could have made better. I did everything yet here I am now. I know what it means to fight and I know what lies ahead.
I read this post a couple of weeks back about a guy who said he had bought a gun. 'It makes me feel better to know I can end this any time' he remarked. That was when I knew this guy didn't want to commit suicide. Like a lot of people here he was desperate and eager to change his life, but did not know how. I am way past that stage. If I found a gun I would not even have to think about it. I would see it. I would run to it. I would dive to the floor to pick it up and I would blow my brains out. This is what it means to be suicidal.
No cries for help. No despair. Nothing to miss. I want this done. I just wish there was some way of guaranteeing it like the magic pill.
I am different. I saw where my life was going. Eclipse the past and set up the future I said. If you can't join them, make damn sure you can beat them I added. You can't imagine the sacrifices I have made (yeh..yeh they will think), the altruism I have shown, the dedication and determination I have exerted. (boring... everyone works hard sometimes) !!!!
Five years ago I didn't ask for help. I didn't need help. I have never needed help. I did things by myself when everyone and everything was against me.
I hear platitudes of 'don't give up' 'keep trying'. Well five years ago I said the same things to myself. I did everything to change this life, and that is why I can say that this is my fate. There is no decision I could have made better. I did everything yet here I am now. I know what it means to fight and I know what lies ahead.
I read this post a couple of weeks back about a guy who said he had bought a gun. 'It makes me feel better to know I can end this any time' he remarked. That was when I knew this guy didn't want to commit suicide. Like a lot of people here he was desperate and eager to change his life, but did not know how. I am way past that stage. If I found a gun I would not even have to think about it. I would see it. I would run to it. I would dive to the floor to pick it up and I would blow my brains out. This is what it means to be suicidal.
No cries for help. No despair. Nothing to miss. I want this done. I just wish there was some way of guaranteeing it like the magic pill.
It may sound good in theory, but is it really. Sometimes thibngs seem so hopeless at that moment, that yes, we feel the time is at hand. With something like that, there could be no second thoughts. Or what about the person that doesn't truly understand what it will do. They have a change of heart, but it is too late. No, I am glad it is not something available to u readily. I can't say though, that there are times when I really wished I had that availability.
M
Yes Guy Incognito XI, that pill indeed!
Why do you want to die?
Live is so awful....and there is NO hope, I know!
I hate this creation so much......I hate this planet it's all about money and you must have a beautiful body, have friends....etc etc....
I have nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This creation is not made for me, it's hopeless!
I hate capitalism!
Why do you want to die?
Live is so awful....and there is NO hope, I know!
I hate this creation so much......I hate this planet it's all about money and you must have a beautiful body, have friends....etc etc....
I have nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This creation is not made for me, it's hopeless!
I hate capitalism!
There are many pills that would make you feel better....they don't kill you but the antidepressents will make you have the motivation to live. Even though my medication has not worked in yet I'm optimistic that it will. To me, my brother, friend(s) and cousins....please pray that it works.
Just live not to die...live not to die...pills are needed to save your life. Just do it...live damn it. Just live not to die and in the end you'll be happy....just find the courage to give advice here and you'll be alright. Hope you well Guy.
Just live not to die...live not to die...pills are needed to save your life. Just do it...live damn it. Just live not to die and in the end you'll be happy....just find the courage to give advice here and you'll be alright. Hope you well Guy.
I would be happy with one of two pills:
1. The one Guy was describing - instant easily available death
OR
2. A pill that is a cureall for all my psych screwups and to erase this shit of a life I have lived and give me a life worth living (as opposed to the numerous pills on the market that just advertise to give you a hand IF you can get the combination right - which is impossible).
Unfortunately neither is available, so its messy self anhialation or continued torture.
Mind you, I would prefer to destroy my body in the process of leaving this world rather than just taking a pill.
Kaysha
1. The one Guy was describing - instant easily available death
OR
2. A pill that is a cureall for all my psych screwups and to erase this shit of a life I have lived and give me a life worth living (as opposed to the numerous pills on the market that just advertise to give you a hand IF you can get the combination right - which is impossible).
Unfortunately neither is available, so its messy self anhialation or continued torture.
Mind you, I would prefer to destroy my body in the process of leaving this world rather than just taking a pill.
Kaysha
Tell me, why are you even in the forums, Icgonito? If you wanted to do suicide, then do it. But answer this question, "What are you going to get after you do suicide?" No pain possibly? I doubt it. If you are religious or believe that there is a hell, it's going to be a lot more worse than it is here. Also, if you REALLY had the urge to do suicide, why are you hesitating? It only means that you are here for a reason, not for something extremely idiotic. If you really still want to keep that opinion, then at least go to war with Iraq or to protect your country. At least your going to die for a good reason, not for something crappy because you have no friends. I have felt that pain, and I am still bearing it now. At times, I DO want to go and get that gun, that one gun that could end all of my troubles. But, is it worth it? I ask myself this question every day, should I do suicide? I cannot because I am catholic by birth and it is one of the mortal sins to commit suicide. So, what I do to help lessen the pain, is meditation. Try it man. It's like drugs, it helps make you feel a lot more better (except for the fact that it's healthy for you, not causing lung cancer or crap like that). Anyways, if you think you have no friends, then we wouldn't even be here replying to your needs. Just think about this for a while.
- Status