At times like these, I wish there would be a pill to swallow that would immediately kill me. Just one tiny pill, whoops. Side Effects? As soon as the pill is taking effect, I want everyone I ever knew to forget about my existence from the start altogether. Well maybe they already don't remember me without the usage of any stupid pills. Don'tleavemealone,don'tleavemealone. Ahh, but still you go everytime. Telling me it's always about me being hurt, when all I really need is for you to stay. I never begged for anything more. I'd get on my knees, I'd cry and call you my Saint, if only these things would make you stay. I need you so bad, though you are the one that destroys me in the utmost. I just don't know where to go anymore. I'm tired of trying to be strong for you, knowing I can't help you, because of this damn Long Distance Relationship. I'm just too far away. I just "can't understand you" either. I don't have the money, or a driving license, or any kind of power. I feel so worthless. I keep adding stress to my parents and I know for a fact that they'd be glad if I was gone, they would move to another country and live their dream. I know it. They told me. I keep adding troubles to my classmates, who are complete strangers to me, by being such a dense idiot, who is not capable of getting just one thing right. Oh, please kill me. But I'm too dumb to even kill myself, I can't even do the simplest task and do everyone a favor. Because I'm scared of adding even more pain to the one that already turmoils in my heart. I feel so squished, there are knots in my throat all the time, sometimes I just can't breathe and even though I'm still capable of crying, it is so annoying. I cry because of every little thing. I get frustrated so easily, like when there's an inkspot on my homework. I lose it. I lost it. Oh please, just give me a pill to end it all, a pill that makes everyone else and above all ME forget that I ever existed.