I don't know, I only have a short amount of time to make changes in my life before school starts and I keep coming back to the thought that killing myself is the best option. It is as if everything needs to go right for me very soon or else I will probably end my life. I really don't see how normal people live, life seems so depressing to me, so hard that it just dosen't seem worth it. It is not only my life but other peoples lives, people who are supposedly happy, I just don't see how they can keep going. Anyway I need drastic improvements in my life soon or else i will end it all.