People are asking me what my new years resolution is and to be honest, i'd rather die than think of living for one more whole year...at the moment i dont think I'll last until new years. My mind is always racing with thoughts of suicide, how ill do it? when i should organise it? what people wil say? What if i fail? so many thoughts! how can i get rid of them? they have overcome me and there is no turning back! It's so close to over!