i have come up with one. and sway from one extreme to the other. pit of despair to high elation and hope. but i ve never actually had a plan, not really. and now i do and it s so disheartening can t stop thinking about it. so i ll distract myself some more with games and shows like Lost because it passes time. and try not feel so alone and like people are not on same page as me. i felt i was meant for things and maybe not people. just things and to inspire people but not actual people. idk what this is anything/anyone?