planned it ...:(

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Little-Darcy, Feb 24, 2013.

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  1. Little-Darcy

    Little-Darcy Member

    hi im not sure if this is allowed i am sorry if its not :frown:
    i have planned to kill myself and its soon one in my life is listening to how bad i feel its like they dont care parents wont even talk to me either ,ive tried and tried and now its all come down to this ...i no this is what i need to do ,i just need my life to be over :frown:...
  2. PureBlueLight

    PureBlueLight Well-Known Member

    Don't do it, please!
    Talk to me, tell me how you feel, and what you need.:frown:
  3. Little-Darcy

    Little-Darcy Member

    i need to feel better but i dont know what will make me feel better i dont want to feel like this anymore i need it to stop i need it all to stop :( ...i feel so alone ,my mental health worker isnt even listening to anything i say its like i am invisible to her and like she doesnt care about me ,i have tried to talk to my parents and they dont like me anyway ,my dad treats me bad and my mum says i am always letting her down horrible i feel depressed and out of control and i cant feel like this any longer :(
  4. PureBlueLight

    PureBlueLight Well-Known Member

    First of all, you need to be in a place where you feel safe.
    Second, you cannot be physically alone right now, because it makes things worse. Do you have a friend or someone who trully likes you and cares about you nearby?
    Third, i know it's hard but you need to realize you need to feel better, and stop thinking negative so much.
    Even if you are alone, if you cannot help yourself, nobody else will. It's hard to digest but you need to be in control, even if you feel terrible and abandoned.
    You will feel better later, trust me, and please don't harm yourself, it would make me really sad too.:grey:
    I can't be there to hug you and tell you everything's going to be ok, but i'm always available here.:hug:
  5. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    I have found that when people are not listening, sometimes writing things down gets their also makes them responsible in a way that the spoken words does not...send your parents and your mental health worker the same letter and make them listen or report the worker and give notice to your parents...there are many of us here who can help you write this, so please PM me, ask anyone on staff or anyone you feel can help you express how you are are not alone
  6. Little-Darcy

    Little-Darcy Member

    thanks but i am not sure how to pm anyone :(
    i dont have anyone to be with
  7. pickwithaustin

    pickwithaustin Staff Alumni

    I am a parent.
    My son died by suicide.

    Parents don't always "get it," I'm not saying that I didn't but I am saying that many just do not. I blame society, the media, and even some of the mental health industry and suicide "prevention" organizations for this. There is such a fear that people will "copy cat" a suicide if they hear about one, that they hide away the fact that this is happening... and it is happening OFTEN.

    The reason that I bring that all up is because if people understood this all better, and if there was more education and awareness about it, the people (and parents) would understand better that depression is dangerous and that great losses can occur if it is not taken seriously and responded on with urgent caring and address. Without this understanding, parents may often treat a child as if they are taken for granted. "Oh they're just being silly... they'll get over it," or "They are just going through a phase."

    You need to read the things that I just said because you need to understand that, though there are always exceptions to every rule, in general most parents DO care. They may not take things serious or they don't know how to show how they really feel deep down inside. I hope that you gain some insight from this and know that you are important to everyone you know, especially your parents. As for mental health professionals, there are good ones and bad ones. If you are not getting the proper attention from the ones you are working with, seek out a change. What you cannot do is give up. Five years from now you may look back and be very thankful that you rode this through positively.
  8. Little-Darcy

    Little-Darcy Member

    my dad just says i am attention seeking and that there is nothing wrong
  9. sadhart

    sadhart Well-Known Member

    There are also people who think the mental health system as a game. My mother tried to have me committed two summer's ago. She told them I had threats of suicide, when I didn't at that time. Police came and handcuffed me and took me to the emergency room to be evaluated....which consisted of talking to a doctor and a mental health specialist for about 30 minutes each.....between those two evaluations, I spent nearly two hours sitting in a room while a guard sat by the door. The thing is though, in a rare moment the system worked for once as they both listened and saw I was not a danger to myself and/or others. But it doesn't end there. See, when my mother found out I would not committed, well she made sure that no one in my family would pick me up. Why? Because she's passive aggresive and selfish and thinks she has control over my life in ways that she doesn't even have maturity and control over her own. I ended up walking almost 14 miles in the dark to get back to where I live. I live with my aunt and my mother was only visiting. For the next several days, she acted like she had been wronged and didn't speak to me for several months.

    The reason why I';m saying this is because it can be dangerous to open up to family, because they pull crap like that. She didn't do it to help me, rather she did so because she is vindictive and selfish. The mental health system is broken and flawed, and selfish people like my mother should have been fined for her reckless crap. I'm sorry if this is a ramble, and I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense, but I just needed to say this.
  10. pickwithaustin

    pickwithaustin Staff Alumni

    There is indeed truth in what you just said. For me, it's hard to imagine - though I know that kind of thing does happen. My children are more valuable to me than anything else and I expect other parents to feel the same way. Many times though, as you say, they don't. When people abuse a system like you described, it hurts things for every body. I know that Child Protective Services (CPS) gets abused by people all of the time. Other programs, such as the welfare system, get abused too. Welfare is important and I stand behind helping people - but the abusers hurt these programs and then we all pay for it. It not only costs money, but it takes away from the quality of service that could be getting provided. On the up side, I was at a meeting two weeks ago about the new influx of money (in the U.S.) going toward heath services, including mental health. The figures are in the billions of dollars... so hopefully we will all see great reform in existing programs, and new things added also.

    Back to the original poster, it sounds to me like your dad may be in denial. Too many people refuse to understand or accept reality. Again, I think some blame goes to the way that depression and suicide are treated as bad things to hide. Certainly they are not "good" things, per say, but they exist and are real and they are not only experienced by people who are weird, strange, unworthy, or the like. In particular, parents need to become more educated in understanding this better, in detecting warning signs and symptoms, and in knowing how to address this so that it is not ignored, taken lightly, ignored, mocked, or otherwise not taken seriously enough.

    Do you have, perhaps, another family member that you trust whom you can address this with? An uncle, cousin, aunt, etc?
  11. skinnylove911

    skinnylove911 Well-Known Member

    Hey there

    Can you tell us whats troubling you rght now whats your current situation thats making you feel this way. do you have a crisis call them now! do you have a cpn call him/her now if not speak to your parents and go straight to hospital t be mentally evaluated.
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