Hi I am in a private psychiatric facility - have ust been diagnosed with a mood disorder, and have also recently separated from a long term marriage. I have a background of trauma and abuse, and my behaviours have lead to the end of my marriage. I am planning to suicide when I can get out of here but at the moment I can't even pretend that I'm ok. Nothing here is helping, no one understands and I feel completely destroyed - no matter what I did or how strong I was my abuser ended up getting everything. Not sure why I'm posting here just feel like saying this out loud to anyone who will listen.