Please, any who are triggered by these kinds of topics, leave. I don't want to hurt anyone. I am planning my suicide<mod edit guidelines>. I have a note written to my sister, the only person who cares. I have no friends left who care, no family who cares (except those wanting me into their cult practices). Except my sister, who will be devastated. I know that. I cannot live my life for her, though. I want to die <mod edit - methods>. It will work, according to the police and EMT's who came here last time. I just want to end it all and go home. I know there will be repercussions and I will likely regret it once I'm on the 'other side'. But I cannot handle life anymore. I love the Earth, and the people on it, but I cannot live here anymore.