I'm 19 years old and I realize I have no future. I suffer from severe depression, I also have mild autism, no friends (never had any all my life). I dropped out of school few years ago and I am unable to concentrate or focus on tasks. I have interests and things I could be good at but my apathy and lack of willpower guarantee I'll be a failure. My genes are inferior and I am not equipped to deal with the real world. I tried suicide few weeks ago by jumping 55 feet into the sea but I survived. I'll try to do it right this time. I think it's a smart decision. I suffer from mental pain, sadness etc. every day. I also possibly have schizophrenia, social anxiety and other disorders. If I let more time slip by I will be a certified failure and I wont allow that to happen. I find comfort in realizing I will be dead soon. Just thought I'd let someone in the world know :smile: Thanks for listening.