<mod edit - guidelines> I've been putting it off for so long I think it's about time I did something to make sure they're not all just empty talk. <mod edit> I would also like to make a note saying that if my suicide attempt was to fail and my brain dies and I don't, please do not put me on some machine to sustain my empty shell. Right now I just need to finish playing this video game, meet a couple of friends for a meal, <mod edit> and hope for success. <mod edit> I need to muster the courage to do it though. I still feel scared at the thought, but I know it'll be for the best.