I have had enough. I have been thinking about this for a while. I have decided that Sunday will be the day for me. I have my ideas of what I am going to do. Things have gotton so much worse over the past few weeks and I can't keep it together anymore. I have spoken help lines etc and they are no good. I find it really hard to talk to anyone about things. The people at hospital can't really help. Just recently the time I felt my best was when i was in hospital and I was given Diazepam - is great stuff! I know I cant take it long term though. They wouldnt give me any to take away. It make me feel as though I had no care in the world. I have tried all the things people have told me to do and none of it has worked. So. I am going to work tomorrow - dont know why I am bothering but I suppose it is distraction for 7 hours. Things are pretty crap there at the moment. I am not doing well so it makes it harder for me. I care too much about what other people think and dont want people to think bad of me. I feel as though I have nothing to live for anymore. Nothing is making me happy and it is hard to do anything when you feel like that. My existence at the moment is pretty dull. I get up, watch TV go to bed. Some days I go to work. I have no money to do anything with and I seem to fail at everything that I do.