For the last two years ive had a plan. Last night and today ive visited the site.thats all my head goes to. Im having trouble thinking of anything else.i told my counselor and she wants me to check in tomorrow. But if i told my therapist i know he would hospitalize me. . I dont know what to do. I just cant sit through this. Im going nuts. And my emotions are going o-60 in seconds. And so does my anger. I have like no control.