I dont even feel like I should be posting, I don't know why I am really sorry. I struggling so much and I have no where to turn. the last few days my head has been filled with nothing but taking my own life, <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> everything I see, I see as something to use to end this so called life. I'm not happy, I am getting worse, I am trying to get help to get off heroine by my ex won't leave me alone and injected me several times in the neck I was hoping it would kill me, I was hoping it would send me over and i would die. my new drug worker just says don't go to him, doesn't understand that I don't care about enough to fight back, that if I don't do as said he will spike my drink, he will do something and then hit me, rape me and still inject me...but i go back to him, i go to him in the hope he will kill me, i want to die. tonight i've cut, i want to keep cutting until i bleed to death, i want to inject inject inject until i die. i want to die. i have nobody to speak to, lonelyness is a killer. thoughts, flashbacks are a killer. depression is a killer. I am dead inside, just existing on the outside. I'm ready to die, I want to die. kill me please. DH kill me please. me kill me. i want to die as i just so no other way to get out of this hell. I don't know what else to do, too many times I've been here, too many times I've tried to get help, too many times too many and now its over, i want out. please can you help me. please? Please? I won't be missed, its not a loss, I am nothing therefore I won't be missed or even noticed that I'm dead but I need your help please? I am begging please can you help me? please?