The only reason im still here is because of the kids. I dont want to be here. Everday is a struggle to just be here. Today my daughter told me that everything is my fault and that she hates her life. she hates all the people in her life and its all my fault. Right now i am dealing with so much that people that are healthy dont know how im doing it. All anyone knows about is that i have depression. I cut on a daily basis and its getting deeper and deeper. If my kids dont even care about me there is absolutely no reason for me to be here. For the last six months every aspect of my life has had major changes. None of which are my doing. Ive had a plan for the last two years. theres nothing stopping me now. I cant do this anymore. Please dont make me stay.