Please Don't

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by BelovedDreamer, Feb 9, 2014.

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  1. BelovedDreamer

    BelovedDreamer Well-Known Member

    Please don’t do this.
    I can’t go through it again.
    I won’t admit it.
    No I’m wrong.
    Not again.
    She was a horrible creature.
    I was right about that.
    But I do fear the threat.
    Don’t leave me standing alone.
    I know how my mind turns and churns
    and crashes against
    the same pointless, shameful silliness.
    I know it’s off.
    I know I should just turn it off.
    But the damn switch seems to have broken off
    or some such thing.
    I know I’m off.
    But I can’t stop the circling.
    All the tricks keep failing
    and logic is nothing in the face
    of my wild mind’s will.
    The inside of my head
    is its own special kind of hell.
    I have been parboiled
    into a human-sized raisin-like
    creature of fear and impotent fury.
    I’d say death stalks me
    but that’d be a lie.
    She’s like an old, lost friend,
    the thought of which still brings comfort and grief.
    No, no,
    life stalks me.
    Life, with the knowledge of years in its eyes
    and the promise of a brand new day
    day, after day
    and with each one a fresh hell
    and my brain, once cherished, now a hazard.
    Life smites me with myself again and again.
    Don’t do this.
    I need to know
    that someone else knows
    at least a little
    that I am broken
    and I am terrified
    and they love me anyway.
    I need to know someone will listen
    even when I can’t quite hear
    or think.
    Please don’t leave me alone with myself.
     
  2. flowers

    flowers Senior Member

    :hug: for you.
     
  3. BelovedDreamer

    BelovedDreamer Well-Known Member

    Thank you.
     
  4. Twocky61

    Twocky61 Banned Member

    :freehug: for BelovedDreamer
     
  5. soulreaper

    soulreaper Well-Known Member

    I can really feel the pain and torment... *hug
     
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