Please dont reply to this thread. asking me to reconsider or telling me to keep on trying. i have logged on just to tell you i hopefully wont be here anymore after tonight.. i have tried my hardest to see things in the bigger picture. but ive had enough of fighting.. ive cried more tears than i care to remeber, the past creeps up on you like fire spreads to petrol i wish i could say i was innocent and i didnt deserve this but i do. Him and everyone else have finally made me give up. if my heart would just stop beating id gladly let it. I cant act like im all high a mighty anymore. i wish there wasnt any pain. I have learnt one thing in life. and that is that good people suffer everday... i wish i could say i was one of those people but im not. if i could take away the pain from everyone here i would. i have met some of the most friendlist people.. i hope you all find happiness... i love all my friends here. im sorry.. i love you all..