Hello. Howdy doo Okay, right to the point. I've been suicidal, and still am, for a long time now. I've looked through hundreds of sites on suicide, I've talked to so many people about it. And what truly pisses me off is when they say these two lines: 1) There Is Hope 2) Suicide is not the answer. I could punch someone when I hear those two lines. Yes, apparently lots and lots of this so called "hope" is flying around, yet I can never seem to find any no matter how hard I look. It just evades me. The reason I want to suicide is because I can't find any other option. I don't want to live this shitty life. I don't want to get into the detail about my life. But I certainly do not want to go on like this. So if suicide is not the answer THEN WHAT IS? Is it to go on living pretending nothing is wrong? Is that the answer? Someone please explain that to me. WHAT THE HELL IS THE ANSWER?