I'm pretty sure I have schizoid personality disorder, which basically means that I have zero motivation, and extremely suppressed feelings. I experience little or no pleasure from my existence. I guess the reason why I haven't done it yet is because it would be too much work, as lame as that may sound. I don't like people much and desire no intimate relationships. Never had a girlfriend. I guess if I had a job and money I'd have try sex with a higher end prostitute, but as I don't I haven't. It doesn't really bother me. I have no affection for my sister nor, my parents, so please don't tell me how bad that would make them feel. I don't give a fuck. Please don't threaten me with hell either, I don't believe in god, and if there was an afterlife, I'm going to hell anyways, what's a 50 year delay to eternal damnation? Also don't tell me that I might regret it. Regret, or any other feeling is impossible after death. Don't try to scare me with pictures of dead people, I think they're kind of funny actually, the thought of that being me doesn't bother me. Meh. If I don't kill myself by the time I finish high school I guess I'll join the army and let some terrorist do the job for me. Being blown up or getting shot in the head doesn't sound so bad. Can you convince me not to do it? Thanks for your time.