Im so scared. Its so hard to breath. My wife of 20 years is leaving me and our 2 children. She says she is not happy anymore and has found someone else whom she thinks can make her happy. I know how selfish suicide is but the thoughts are just so overwhelming. All my life I have been abandoned I dont want to put my kids through that. Im so scared. How do I survive this? She hasent left yet shes just gone alot. I asked her to please stop talking to this GUY so we can work on our relationship but she refuses. I feel so tortured its amazing what Ill put up with to not be alone. Im so tired tired of all this fear and pain. Im so tired. My nights are filled with terrors and my days with anxiety and suffering. Please GOD help me.