Guys, I want to die right now!! I just can't do this anymore. I am the most useless, worthless person alive. Nobody can love this. I am sure my husband only stomaches me. He is waiting for me to die. He talks with me in short hard phrases and ignores me otherwise. I guess I deserve it. He deserves freedom. I am actually thinking of a way to die that will look like an accident so he can get my life insurance. That will give him all the money he needs, free him from me and he can finally get that car he wanted. It also removes me from his ears in terms of having kids. It's my own fault. I shouldn't have told him. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am posting because I know it's my head. What I feel is only a feeling. It doesn't change the anguish. PLEASE I am sorry to intrude, but can anybody tell me something that will help?