I will keep it as brief as possible. i was 17 i have brain damage that makes me have the mind of a 14 year old i had a bad childhood and always felt like wanting to die,i felt like there was no hope and my life had no meaning i felt like that all my life,and still do. okay now i will keep this brief because its too painful i was raped multiple times by a man but he continued to constantly verbally mentally and insult me harshly,tearing mind to shreads (even beat me sometimes) i was young and scared i couldnt understand why this was happening to me,i got mixed into drugs and alcohal because of him (im clean now) he got me into bad trouble and he went to jail,but the harrassment didnt stop i finally came clean to my mom and we had him thrown in jail for what he did to me..but now i face court-dates and so much fear of everything,the harrassment wont stop. He's in my nightmares,i cant sleep at night i can barley eat,think,or control my moods. I'm so horribly depressed and feel theres no reason that i should even exist anymore.. I don't believe in God. I don't believe in anything,The only thing i believe in,is that there's just. No. Hope. Can somebody please help me..? I feel like such a burden in this world and just want to die..