I'm losing control. I . . . feel . . . horrible . . . inside. It is like I am being ripped apart and my whole body is empty. I need to end this pain. It is taking over me. I would commit suicide, but I can't hurt everyone around me- it would be too selfish. My best friends, my family, and my community would be deeply affected so sadly the option is very complicated. I'm tired, I'm sick right now, I'm failing school, I just need to end it. My body is begging me to end it tonight, but I can't hurt everyone around me. Somethings got to give and make me feel better. I need help. I have a therapist and I will be going to a psychiatrist in a few weeks but what do I do in the mean time? How do I pull through without dragging everyone else down around me? I also have been self-injuring and they are only surface cuts but I have been trying to draw blood (I don't use anything to sharp because I am trying to be somewhat safe.) I just need professional help but I have to wait for it. Any tips on how to get through? Laying around is not an option because I have to get through the end of this school year (I'm already on a medical extension where everyone else is on Summer vacation and I am going to school alone to make up work with my guidance counselor.