Look I'm not sad, depressed, upset or angry I just want to die. Let me explain, I no longer see meaning in life in every sense, whether it be morality, spirituality, success or anything. If you gave me everything I ever wanted, I would not want it because I do not know the first thing about being happy. Happiness is more foreign than cligon to me. I have never been in a real relationship to be honest, am not a Virgin but damn the fakeness of it all it took me to get me there. In fact some people would describe me as a smart, happy go lucky guy but I do not wish for love, life, sex, drugs, alcohol or etc. The things I see have become hollow, buildings, family, friends, potential lovers. I long for emptiness, for absolute nothingness. I know it sounds morbid but to me it's romantic, the hell is wrong with me?