Over the past few days I've been contemplating suicide. I haven't left my home for 3 months because I don't have friends anymore, they all left me. Nobody tries to contact me and I don't understand what I've done to make them not want to speak to me. I've got anger issues and because of them I've been kicked out of 5 different schools and no longer have a school to go to. The people from the schools I used to be in send me abusive text messages from blocked numbers telling me to kill myself and that I'm fat and I'm ugly. I started self harming about 6 months ago and it helped at first but its just made everything worse for me in the long run. I hear voices telling me to kill myself and I can't tell my family because I don't trust them. I have nobody to speak to, I am completely alone, I figure that if I'm dead, none of me friends will miss me because I don't have any, all of the people who bully me will be happy, my family won't have to put up with me anymore and I won't have to suffer any longer. I know things have to get better and that's why I need help. I need help coping because I can't do this alone anymore. I would rather die than be alone but everybody has given up on me and suicide seems like the only solution right now, I don't want to have to wait for good things to happen, I just want to be happy. Please help me.