My little sister and I got in a bad fight (verbal) and her words cut me really deep. They shouldn't have, but they did. I went in my room and tied the belt around my neck again. :unsure: She came through my room without knocking(hers is the through the next door) and saw me! hmy: she ratted me out to my mum who marched up the stairs, ofcourse really upset and confused. I was taking it off when my sis came in, and I wasn't quick enough. I took a Hydrocodone I stashed from having my wisdom teeth out last week and together I was calm. I told her I wasn't attempting suicide (my sister said "shes strangling herself" I can only imagine my mum breaking inside), which is 110% true. she asked if she should check me into a hospitol- this has got to be the third time she's asked. :sad: I assured her NO, but told her I have done it several times because 'it helps'. she said 'i don't want to have you on anti-depressents again' I said NO. Didn't say anything about the pain meds. I am feeling the rush now and have some shaking but its cold so I can play it off. I don't know what to do. I'm so scared. I have like 8 pain pills left of 20, and I don't need them anymore. but it helped too. Do I sneak another just in case? would she notice? do I come clean and tell her I need her to lock them up because I used one? this was really long, and may not make sense when I'm done but I need the advice. I'm terrified of being commited, but I hurt so bad and am crying right now. :sad: I love my sister but she hurts me so much.