I have noted a few weird things about my thought patterns. Please help me to identify what is really wrong with me.. 1. I do not seem to have a constant opinion on anything. I wake up cursing god and then by evening I tend to have a religious inclination. Then after a few hours I find myself cursing god again for my miseries.The same thing with politics, view on the society, parents, and even myself. Basically everything. My mind is always wandering and thinking about some stupid shit in this world. 2. I tend to obsess about very foolish things and I'm superstitious which makes things worse. eg: I feel that I must close the tap properly or else some thing bad will happen..or I always set the TV channel number to 99 before I go to sleep. If I don't then I feel guilty. I feel its a matter of life and death as if the channel number determines the number of years I will live. I know this is insane but this is how it is. Its a waste of time really. This has hampered my way of living to a large extent because there are constant thoughts conflicting in my mind. 3. I cannot read books. I haven't read a single book in my whole life. When I was studying computer science at university, I would just go through concise notes or may be just go through the highlighted portions of a book. I used to be amazed that other students can read about 100 pages in a day whereas I can read 20 at the most with a lot of difficulty. I just can't concentrate for more than an hour. 4. I lust after girls. I feel bad because I can't see myself as loving them or feeling for them but I only want sex ? I fear that I have become a sick pervert.