I have been lonely all my life. I am the type of person who consistently puts all her eggs in one basket, and because of this I am almost always left disappointed. A couple months ago, I lost my job and my boyfriend of four years. I have become reclusive and go days without talking to anyone. I also have developed so much anxiety lately that I have not been able to sleep for two days. I cannot go on like this, and suicide seems like the only answer. I have tried going to therapy, joining a group, and have written various agencies about trying to volunteer just to get out of the house. I have had no success with any of this. I am truly miserable and cannot see any light at the end of this long lonely tunnel. I have researched the various ways suicide is carried out and have chosen a method that I think I can go through with. I have even written a note and decided which charities I would like to donate my car, computer, and other belongings to. I think I am finally going to do this. I’m feel like I’m backed against the wall….and I’m terrified.