i found this forum tonight, just minutes ago, because i googled "suicide forum". i desperately need someone to talk to. anxiety is eating me up and i can't get rid of the persistent dark clouds that surround me. i know that self harm isn't the answer but when i look at myself, and my scar-covered arms, i cant help but think that i can't deal with it in any other way. in the mean time, i listen to the lovely voice of carl barat and chain smoke.