Please help me.

Discussion in 'I Have a Question...' started by Anime-Zodiac, Oct 22, 2010.

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  1. Anime-Zodiac

    Anime-Zodiac Well-Known Member

    I'll start off with saying that I am addicted to pleasure. Firstly it was through ************* and then porn was added to that. As it has developed, it has consumed alot of my time. There was times when I would be hungry for food but still carry on my porn search. In the end I would be soo weak from not eating, that I didn't want to do anything.

    In the last few months, I've had thoughts and feelings about touching women. Because these kinds of thoughts freak me out, I would get more and more distressed about them and thus they would stay in my mind for longer. I feel as if I want to act out but the real side of me doesn't want that, it's the animal/addicted side that wants it.

    Also i've been wanting certain women but that is the addicted side of me. I truly don't want them yet I feel like one day I will break and act out on these feelings and thoughts.

    It's horrible being like this. I just want to be a normal person. I'm also scared to go out because of what I think I could do.

    I just want to know if there is anyone else who is or has gone through this sort of thing.

    Thank you for reading and kind regards.
     
  2. lozzie

    lozzie Well-Known Member

    hey just wanted to say ur awesome for expressing these issues. im here to listen :)
     
  3. Confusticated

    Confusticated Well-Known Member

    I recommend seeing a therapist about all of this if it's worrying you, however, these feelings could just be perfectly normal. Depending on your age and sex, your hormones could be all over the place, at different levels etc. For example, you've probably just described 90% of teenage boys at one stage. However if this is worrying you, see a therapist about it. Or not even that, just a doctor. You could get some tests done to see if there's something wrong with your hormones, because that's most likely all it is.
    Here if you need to talk.
     
  4. Enigmatic Ed

    Enigmatic Ed Well-Known Member

    millions of years of evolution cause these feelings as long as you know right from wrong im sure you will do the right thing. we are here to help in any way we can unfortunately its just words but they are our thoughts and we mean them. stay strong.
     
  5. mulberrypie

    mulberrypie Well-Known Member

    im pretty sure almost all heterosexual males over the age of 12 have gone through this sort of thing. heheheheh. it's perfectly normal. hope this helps.
     
  6. loser

    loser Well-Known Member

    You are addicted to porn and it has let you to neglect yourself.
    You need to make it more difficult for you to access porn such as filters or parental control software.
    You also need distractions that lower sexual arousal.
    Try puzzles with maths problems. These do not have to be on computer. You can buy puzzle magazines and books.
    Go running.
     
  7. Anime-Zodiac

    Anime-Zodiac Well-Known Member

    Thank you all for your replies. My age is in the middle 20's. I am going to see the doctor soon, what worries me is that I will act out.

    I'm on Citalopram, 40mg at the moment but I don't always take them. My family has a history of mental illness also. Not sure how big a factor this is.
     
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