I'll start off with saying that I am addicted to pleasure. Firstly it was through ************* and then porn was added to that. As it has developed, it has consumed alot of my time. There was times when I would be hungry for food but still carry on my porn search. In the end I would be soo weak from not eating, that I didn't want to do anything. In the last few months, I've had thoughts and feelings about touching women. Because these kinds of thoughts freak me out, I would get more and more distressed about them and thus they would stay in my mind for longer. I feel as if I want to act out but the real side of me doesn't want that, it's the animal/addicted side that wants it. Also i've been wanting certain women but that is the addicted side of me. I truly don't want them yet I feel like one day I will break and act out on these feelings and thoughts. It's horrible being like this. I just want to be a normal person. I'm also scared to go out because of what I think I could do. I just want to know if there is anyone else who is or has gone through this sort of thing. Thank you for reading and kind regards.