I used to be able to smile, in fact, a year ago, I could. A year ago I was in a relationship with Emily. She was the only person who cared about me, that made me feel human. It took several months for me to build up the courage to ask her out, and it was amazing when she said yes. For once, no amount of the regular bullying could have wiped the smile from my face. Then, one day, well into the relationship, she ended it. I skipped lunch and catch-up lessons just so I could see her that day. But, when she finally came in, the first thing she said was 'Goodbye. We're through' and left without ever giving a reason. I don't know what I did, and I'll never know. I never even got to tell her that I had fallen in love with her. Then the bullying got worse. Although they stopped punching me, they started to ignore me, ignore my existence, ignore everything I do. Everyone did it. Everyone. All my 'friends', all my classmates. The schoo wouldn't do anything to help me. Even my own family started to faze me out. Then, I lost many of my outside family: either to accidents, illness or suicide. I just couldn't take it anymore, so I tried to end it. I've done 3 suicide attempts, and I know that, soon, I'll do another, if I don't get help. I've tried everything, but nothing works. I just want to be happy again, to not feel like an outcast. I know my problems are minuscule compared to others, but please, help me.