today was so bad. i get tearully and angry alot with abit of everything and i always take it the wrong way. i always seem to assume what ppl are thinking mostly negative, well tell a lie all the time . im scared if my fiance will end up with someone else because of my negative ways. but paranoia takes me over the limit and then i want to flip and sometimes wana run away as i dont like arguing. im going to see a therapist tmoz and abit scared as they might have a go @ me after how ive been. im just bloody paranoid so much its stresses me out.