So broken, so confused, so lost, so tired, so anxious, so angry, so lifeless, so sick of this! I got a msg from him again and my heart sank the moment i saw his name. i dont love him, i dont wanna b with the person he is now, i want the past to come back. i want to b the angel he saw me as again and i want him to be the soul mate that he once was. but it's never gonna happen. I have to move on, i have to move forward but i'm so weighed down by the past. 3 failed attempts of suicide and now im too scared to even try again...so what can i do? keep living this aimless life? keep searching for the sunlight that turned to black a year ago? it's not worth it! for someone who never did anything wrong i think i've suffered way too long. how can i believe in god? in fate? they say treat people the way u want to be treated...i treat everyone around me like an angel and what do i get? The worst treatment of all! I'm starting to hate looking in the mirror, i hate waking up and i hate going to sleep. i hate pretending and most of all i hate that i have so many beautiful friends who i am disapointing. all these friends, the perfect parents and one love ruined my life....what does that say about me? I'm so weak! Hopeless! HELP ME GET OUT OF THIS BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!