I had a not so plesant experience when I was young. About 11-12 years ago. I managed to put it out of my mind. Until the person who caused the bad experienced was standing right in front of me at the college. Every corner I turn he's there & the memory keeps getting stronger & stronger. It's hurting & I feel like I'm going psychotic. Between the SH & the journal rants, I don't know how much longer I can keep a grip on everything. I have never told anyone about what happened. Only him & I know. I want to tell my counselor, but I'm not sure I can get the words out of my mouth. I'm fairly tight with my counselor, but it's not a comfort thing as the words feel like they are locked up in some secret. I've written journal entries & I have no trouble writing the words, but ugh, I can't say them. I'm going absolutely insane. I haven't had a peaceful sleep since forever now. I'm afraid if this keeps bothering me & I keep losing sleep I'm going to end up in a bad way. It's fair to say I don't know what I'm doing.