I know this probably sounds stupid, but I don't know what to do anymore. I tried to just sleep it through. I slept almost 24 hours today. I tried to talk to people about it, but they just don't get how I'm feeling. When I look in the mirror, I hate my face. I hate my body. I hate my hair. I hate everything about myself. I know my feelings probably sound stupid, but lately all I could think about is 'What would be the least painful way to kill myself?', but then I get scared. I feel like, if I did that, all the problems would go away. Then I get worried about all the things I've been brainwashed, like religion. I just wish all these feelings of self-hate and lonliness would go away. I can't get help, or medication. My mom can't afford it. I feel like I have noone. I just want to sleep all the time. I thought maybe joining this board would help. But, I'm not so sure it will. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm sorry if my feelings sound immature, or stupid. I just really want the feelings to go away, and nothing I do helps.