I feel so stupid doing this but I'm at my wit's end. I don't feel like I can go on anymore, every day is an epic battle that I feel I just can't win. In the past year my life has fallen to pieces. I lost my job, then my family and house. I don't have anyone I feel like I can talk to; everyone keeps telling me it will get better but it won't. Even if it does who's to say it won't just get bad again down the line? I've never felt so alone in my whole life. What's worse this all my fault. I'm an awful human being, I always have been and I always will be. Every friend or loved one I've ever had I pushed away. No one will ever love me because I can't love them back. I can't love anyone. I don't know what to do anymore. I literally have nothing in this world.