Hi... I'm new here, so I probably won't get any replies, but...I just...wanted to share my story. Which is stupid of me, if no one is going to read it. It just....might be nice to...let it all out. I have been raised in a normal, happy, large family. No issues with abuse, no loss of parents. We are pretty well off money wise, too. So....it's weird for me to feel this way. I constantly criticize myself. On my schoolwork, on my (nonexistent) social skills, everything I do is criticized by some part of my brain. I can never get anything right. I always manage to screw something up, to make everything wrong and awkward. I'm useless. I was also teased a lot in third grade. I've never been a victim of bullying, at least...not consistently. But that year, everyone picked on me. They called me fat, ugly, annoying. My teacher, mrs. Lane, had this thing we did where everyone writes a compliment for everyone else in the classroom. Then we take the compliments and glue them on a piece of paper for each person. And on my paper....everyone simply said I was "nice". If we had been allowed not to write a compliment for someone, I am certain I wouldn't have gotten anything. I know im not pretty, I know. So why....why do people have to point it out? Why do humans try to hurt one another simply for the heck of it? I know I'm ugly, I know my face is round and my teeth are crooked and my gut is huge and my boobs are small and my feet are giant and my hair is a mess. I know! I don't need you to tell me again. Every morning, I look in the mirror and I see all the ugliness. I see it, I'm not blind. I don't need you to point it out for me... I'm a horrible, self centered person. I try to play the quiet girl at school, the girl who is nice to everyone. But....it's a mask. I can't let them see how much of a loudmouth I am, or how horrible my thoughts are. I can't...I just can't... I'm sorry....I don't....I can't finish this right now. Maybe I'll continue someday.