How quickly my mind goes back to old habits. I've not harmed myself in several months. And when i did, it was the first time in a few years. I've just been so badly triggered. Right now i am at work and all i want to do is take these scissors, go into the bathroom and cut. I want to see blood on the tiles, blood on my hands. I had my wrists tattooed to try and keep me safe, but i want nothing more then to slice them open right now. I am so fucking angry. So unbearably sad.