im in such a desperate situation right now and i honestly dont know what to do. all i can do is cry and cry.. a few days ago i was basically "f ucked then dumped" and that just triggered so many awful memories and brought me into such a horrible depression. my birthday is tomorrow and im planning on going through with my final act because i truely feel there is no hope. i have to see my counsellour tomorrow to discuss details about my molestation and that makes me honestly want to rip out my fu cking intestines and slit my throat at the same time. i have never felt this bad before i honeslty want to die sooo bad its the only wish i have.. like if i had a god i would just pray to him to kill me .. all i want is some form of relief please please help me please.. all ive been doing is crying and smoking weed and i know im gunna hhave to deal with all this shit soonbut im SO f ucking alone and so messed up.. i have NOBODY and i hate it.. i just want to die so bad please please please if there is a god you will kill me please i beg of you. i dont know what to do i just really need someone right now ... please..