Hi everyone... Il try and do this in limited words... I'm 21 and am losing or to be more honest have lost the will to live... While I type this I'm sitting in a camp site on a student holiday with some really good people and my best friend and in the last 18hrs I have completly broken down (endless crying for no obvious reason) ... There was almost a third time a hour or so again but managed to hold it back... The second break down was in front of my mate which is the first time anyone has witnessed this and she handeled it very well (she is not good at serious conversations but was really amazing).... I just can't do it anymore!!! My medication dosage has been doubled in the last three weeks and is doing nothing if anything it's continulessly getting worse and worse I just want to kill myself something my two closest mates have read from my conversations and general mood and I keep getting told suicide is not an option.. I know it would hurt them if I did.... I keep thinking they are only my friends out of pitty and even though deep down I know it's not true I can't stop thinking about it.... What can I do please!!! It is driving more and more crazy I can't do it, I can't do it, I can't do It anymore please Help... On the whole I get nothing from life anymore so how am I meant to hold on!!!