I Wanna say thanks to all of the people that replied to my post, i really apperciate the support and thanks for showing you care it means a lot to me and i honestly mean that. I dont know whats wrong with me, i dont know if i have a medical condition or i am just extremeley depressed. i Just lay in bed at night wishing i wouldnt wake up i love going to sleep because i know i dont have to face anything again. I did have counciling at school because of my dad but i couldnt bear to tell her that i kept trying to kill myself, i have this pain inside me and i just dont think that its liveable i know life is meant to have its ups and downs but mine is a continual down iv had to grow up fast and i havent had a nice childhood, and my teens years arent good either i just dont know why i should carry on im sorry for writing this and sorry for making you read it, i just dont have anyone i feel that takes me seriously, my life is empty and i feel so alone i just want what i cant have and thats a loving family friends and people that understand.