Please somebody help

[Saint stephen]

I can't do this anymore. The truth is that I have tried.
No one seems to understand not even the angels and saints because if they do, why haven't they helped? Is this a curse? Is God punishing me for my sins? Am I suffering for the sins of my family?
All I wanted was to make everyone proud of me. I never smoked or drank. I never mixed with the bad boys or was truant. I avoided everything that'll bring shame to my family; but all for what?
I've been six years out of High school and I can't be a medical student. I can't find sustainable income. I'm just worthless. My Dad is late and my mum on the other hand is sleeping with my uncle. He is just taking advantage of the entire family, we all know he is diabolical but why is everyone batting an eye?
I can't do shit because I'm broke. No place wants to offer a job because I'm black.
I have hopes and dreams, the best part is that I have a plan and I promise it is going to work.
I still have little hope that I can still pull through, I just need a sponsor, please anybody.

 

[AvidFan]

You can pull through, wishing you the best with your hopes and dreams. Maybe you are being tested - look at Job, he got a pretty rough deal (I'm not religious but you seem to be!). Keep on hoping my friend, life doesn't seem meant to be easy, a series of puzzles and tests, some of us get a harder level than others and less tools to start off with but you've got to polish what you've got and get on with it. Sending you much love.

 

[gypsylee]

I can't do this anymore. The truth is that I have tried.
No one seems to understand not even the angels and saints because if they do, why haven't they helped? Is this a curse? Is God punishing me for my sins? Am I suffering for the sins of my family?
All I wanted was to make everyone proud of me. I never smoked or drank. I never mixed with the bad boys or was truant. I avoided everything that'll bring shame to my family; but all for what?
I've been six years out of High school and I can't be a medical student. I can't find sustainable income. I'm just worthless. My Dad is late and my mum on the other hand is sleeping with my uncle. He is just taking advantage of the entire family, we all know he is diabolical but why is everyone batting an eye?
I can't do shit because I'm broke. No place wants to offer a job because I'm black.
I have hopes and dreams, the best part is that I have a plan and I promise it is going to work.
I still have little hope that I can still pull through, I just need a sponsor, please anybody.

Gypsy x

 

[may71]

Sorry that you're going through this.

I have hopes and dreams, the best part is that I have a plan and I promise it is going to work.
I still have little hope that I can still pull through, I just need a sponsor, please anybody.

Do you want to explain more about what you mean?

 

[Soul flower]

I have hopes and dreams, the best part is that I have a plan and I promise it is going to work.
I still have little hope that I can still pull through, I just need a sponsor, please anybody.

What I have learned is that we have to find a way to be our own sponsor.

"Make it happen." was a phrase pretty near beat into me growing up so not my favorite, but I see the wisdom behind it now. Keep at it - persistence will pay off.

As long as YOU believe in you - so do I!

 

[silentlonging]

Dear Stephen
I am sorry you are going through this. You are not a failure. Nobody should be discriminating against you. That is terrible. You deserve all the best in this life because you are human. You are not worthless.
In terms of your struggles, can you maybe get some distance somehow? Even if that means finding a place in nature like trees or the ocean that you make 'your own' space to plan or meditate or read or whatever you like
Do you have some friends you can talk too?
I send you peace and blessings. Everything passes. Make plans one day at a time
God Bless you Stephen
SL

 

[silentlonging]

Dear Stephen
Also...Even to be in a position to get into medical school means you must be a very intelligent, high quality young man, who wishes to help others. It is sad that the people in your family do not seem to give you support.

God Bless you Stephen
SL

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I can't do this anymore. The truth is that I have tried.
No one seems to understand not even the angels and saints because if they do, why haven't they helped? Is this a curse? Is God punishing me for my sins? Am I suffering for the sins of my family?
All I wanted was to make everyone proud of me. I never smoked or drank. I never mixed with the bad boys or was truant. I avoided everything that'll bring shame to my family; but all for what?
I've been six years out of High school and I can't be a medical student. I can't find sustainable income. I'm just worthless. My Dad is late and my mum on the other hand is sleeping with my uncle. He is just taking advantage of the entire family, we all know he is diabolical but why is everyone batting an eye?
I can't do shit because I'm broke. No place wants to offer a job because I'm black.
I have hopes and dreams, the best part is that I have a plan and I promise it is going to work.
I still have little hope that I can still pull through, I just need a sponsor, please anybody.

I'm sorry you are going through this. You mention medical school and that you are six years out of high school so does that mean that you did an undergraduate degree but couldn't get into med school? There are other options within the medical field. I'm sorry you are finding it difficult to get a job and I wonder if you are applying for the wrong type of job. If you still live with your parents you might be able to get some experience volunteering or doing handyman work or dog walking (my friend was a dog walker for many years). There are a lot of options out there and you are young.

What do you mean by "sponsor"? I have only heard that in reference to 12 step programs.

 

[ib4uib]

I can't do this anymore. The truth is that I have tried.
No one seems to understand not even the angels and saints because if they do, why haven't they helped? Is this a curse? Is God punishing me for my sins? Am I suffering for the sins of my family?
All I wanted was to make everyone proud of me. I never smoked or drank. I never mixed with the bad boys or was truant. I avoided everything that'll bring shame to my family; but all for what?
I've been six years out of High school and I can't be a medical student. I can't find sustainable income. I'm just worthless. My Dad is late and my mum on the other hand is sleeping with my uncle. He is just taking advantage of the entire family, we all know he is diabolical but why is everyone batting an eye?
I can't do shit because I'm broke. No place wants to offer a job because I'm black.
I have hopes and dreams, the best part is that I have a plan and I promise it is going to work.
I still have little hope that I can still pull through, I just need a sponsor, please anybody.

That's the biggest mistake anybody could ever make, trying to be something you think people want you to be is a slippery slope into the place you're in now.
If you feel you want people to be proud of you, then they are not the kind of people you want in your life. And let's imagine you could just be that one person that everybody was proud of, one day and through no fault of your own, life will blind side you, and you'll be forever trying to claw yourself back onto a pedestal that you put yourself on.

Focus on your hope and dreams, and the plan you have which you know is going to work, this is where your energy should be focused, don't focus on your mum and uncle which you have no control over whatsoever.
Focus on you, family will all sort itself out in due time, it's there problem they are making, not yours.



You have a dream, so do everything in your power to create it, and watch every other problem your experiencing, literally disappear