I can here out of desperation. Please talk to me. I don't know how much more I can take. I don't even know if I'll be here tomarrow and I don't know if I'm serious enough to get help. I'm 17, completely alone. I honestly don't have a single friend. It wasn't always like this, but you know how highschool can go. And it's been this way for the past 3 years despite attempts. My parents recently got divorced, but they still love me and are worried about me. I feel so guilty for what I've done for them. I tell my mom how much I hate her and she cries. But it's not true in the least. I'll never be who they want. I can't keep doing this. I met a boy who said he loved me. I fell so hard for him and "never felt that way before" He lived pretty far away, but I thought it was love and he would save me from this mess. Then he told me basically how I was immature, not good enough for him, how I'm lucky to even have him telling me this, that he doesn't ever want to see me again, and lastly, to "piss off!". I'm all alone. I don't see how things will ever get better. I'm not afraid of dying, anything seems to be better than this. I can't stop crying. Three years of this, and now, I'msupposed to go out into the 'real world"? No one cares about me expect my parents who have to. Please talk to me. I want to know that someone is out there.