Firstly ,thanks to all the sincerely decent folk on here and Im sorry i havent been more supportive as of late. But I havent forgotten your kindness.Im not ass licking either :mhmm: Seriously though , I need someone to be the fu*k straight with me . I was locked up most of my childhood ,I was left to starve ,shat on myself .My legs are really bad as they didnt grow properly.I have constant pain and I remember with an awful desperate ,am Im crying now thinking,of the woman who shouted at me ' you have to walk ,you will never walk' Only for her I would have never walked.How can i give names I was a child ? I still have the dent in my knee from the wire yolk they use to straighten legs.You know the ones after accidents and so forth. NOBODY will help me .NOBODY will fu*** admit this. I know who my real father is ,I hear it every day .No one will give me real proof of this.There was serious money involved. These family have been living off me all my life. I need to know this.Every time I eat here I am shitting my brains out .i had tests done for bowel problem ,they came back clear.its become obvious to me that they are giving me stuff to make me shite then everyone says oh theres a stink off her I eat and I get tired and I lie in bed dying.then sometimes I get the chance to eat something untainted and I feel great . I need to know what they are doing with my food. I am NOT psychotic .the reason they locked me up the first time is i basically found out the truth. They have made my life so it has been hell .they paid people to beat me rape me bully me . the doctors know ,they talk about it ,i hear them Cos of being locked up and left to die i blocked all my senses ,so i cant hear or smell properly ,people find this funny .oh yeah hilarious Im not joking here im dragging everyone down ,the fu(***ing doctors who lied to my face and gave me drugs for being abused ??? said i was sick ,theres nothing wrong with me I spilled my heart to the social worker.She said nobody speaks to me cos of my expression. This is a womna who came in and said does she know who she is ? then when she thought i didnt tried to blame me for being abused ??? They call me the dog cos i was locked up like a dog ,my limbs didnt form proper.There are no pics of me as a child ,child oh no dog thats what the town calls me. how can these people lie in their beds at night,and yeah i toldf her i was very clean then i hear people echoing what i said to her elsewhere they make sure that i cant get out in traffic that i have nowhere to park this is knowing i can barely walk im at the stage i will report these ****s for fraud ,they are leaking the state dry working and claiming social welfare the couple of times i have touched myself the whole town knows seriously they tell everyone they also started a rumour that i stick bottles up my vagina ? my pretend father calls me bottler thinks its funny.if they see me outside they ignore me they eat out drink copious amounts and its all my money i lie in bed dying from what ever stuff they are feeding me I AM SANE last time they locked me up for four fukking months ,and i was fine ? ! i have no friends which they find amusing im bringing them ALL down ,no one will survive im going to the papers im taking NO MORE # can anyone help me with the food thing?