Hi Everybody Im a 24 year old guy from Denmark. (So sorry for my bad typing) Im diagnosed "Skitzotypical" (Simple Skitzofrenia) I've had suicide thoughts since I can remember, but since year 2000 I have been in some sort of treatment. Its a little hard to explain, but I have a very good/nice/lovely girlfriend who supports me VERY much, she kept me from thinking "bad thoughts" since about year 2000. Ive got "pension" from the state, but I have a job, that is my dream job. I have a lot of "judgment" at my job so nothing to complain at that point. Every time Ive got a moment for my self where I can think about "the life", I go in some sort of bad mood, (Grunge Music and Pink Floyd helps me) and only focus on "why the hell do I live?" .. I love my girlfriend, my family, our pets, my job.. But I almost always think about leaving to the "other side". My only reason not to suicide is that I dont wanna hurt my family. That thougt have keept me from doing it "for real" in almost whole my life now. I find it very hard to talk with my shrink about it.. Every evening I go to bed, I hope I dont wake the next morning, that will be the most easy solution. Sorry if you dont understand, this is very hard to explain for me.