The thing I feared most in the world has happened. And I genuinely know I can't live through that.. not again. I am so fucking scared. I don't WANT to live through this again. I need this to stop. To be over. Omg.
shit... it's just got even fucking worse. I can't handle this. Someone.. please take this hurt away. please? omg. shit. i cant breathe. im crying too hard. fuck. i need this to stop. i cant fucking deal with this. i cant hold on, i cant, any longer.
herenow - I don't think any amount of writing is going to take this pain away. Ever. But I live alone, have no friends and no family.. so have no one to talk to. This is the only place I can vent and have someone acknowledge that I'm hurting. I feel so alone. Like.. no one would really care if I died. They say they would, but they wouldn't. Not really. I can't believe this is happening to me. I genuinely can't. I can't stop crying, shaking.. I don't know how long I can hold out before I completely buckle under the strain.
Please dont do anything unreasonable, hun.
We(sf) may be strangers,but we will be effected by your death. Because whenever one of us leaves , it can be felt by the entire community. Trust me.
Stay with us! :hug: