I don't even know what I want or need. My life is falling apart; I am falling apart. I wish I had someone to talk to right now but noone I know does any good. I want to commit suicide though I'd never have the guts to do it, and this is the first time I've felt this way and not been panicing. I am just sad. My mother and sister love me but I can't stand to be around them for more than a couple hours a week or they make me crazy. I used to live with my boyfriend at his mom's house but right before he left for SC she said I couldn't stay there while he was gone, and he left anyway knowing I had no place to stay. So I broke up with him today, he wasn't good for me. I love him though, which is another reason why I am so upset. He makes me miserable when I'm with him but I'm also miserable without him. Work is another stressor because they don't have enough people in my department and then we always have to worry about getting in trouble for stuff not getting done when it's really because there's not enough man power. I used to avoid suicidal thoughts because people loved me, but it's starting to feel like even they don't care enough to try to make a difference. Please help me feel better, I am truly in a crisis and desparately need some kind words.