Im 31 years old, Im a single mama of a 5 year year old and i hate my life. I want to disappear. POOOF no more me and I can't becasue I have no more to send my child. The father is unable to take on teh parental responsibilities so not only do i get to deal with all of the difficultness of being a single mom, i have to continue to love in a daily persoanl hell. I have no friends, really truelly. This isnt when you go to her funeral people are lined up down teh block. Every night of teh week I sit alone, no one to talk to, no one to see, Ive tried making friends, peopel just look at me like im a freak and move on. Those that I do get friendly with, say in school, dont ever accept invitations to hang out or return calls. I am a loser. I have nothing to offer to anyone and the one person that was hanging out with me, the guy ive been dating for over 12 months now has decided he doesnt even want to talk to me and why? not bc of other girls or a problem with us. but bc hed rather be alone. hed rather be alone tahn have anything to do with me. so thats it. So my one sourcde to the outside wont talk to me and my chidl keeps asking when's joe coming over? Again, we are left to be alone and I cant get away. I want to disappear, I pray to God that he takes me away and just let everyone continue on with their lives.