I do not know what im going to do. I do not want to go into specifics about my troubles as last time i did i almost lost my life, but im just so trapped again. I am thinking about ending it all, but i can't. Last time i was a lost sheep, but was saved by God (before i ended it the first time i was converted to Christianity) but these past few years were worse than the others. I really want to just esape it all, but i feel like i would be letting God down ( i definetly owe Him one for last time). I feel like even thinking these thoughts would be enough to let Him down. What do i do, plz save me.